Visionary: How Motherhood Changed The Way I See The World
When I was in the 11th grade I was sitting somewhere near the back of the class- (I normally sat up front but it was American History and that teacher was out to get me) anyhow, while I was sitting down my teacher put a slide up on the overhead and I was squinting wondering how on earth he expected us to copy the braille that was before us.
I quickly glanced over to find one of my friends taking notes and I was stunned. I leaned over and asked " how the heck can you see that?" she just laughed at me and expressed that she had perfect 20/20 vision. I rolled my eyes and moved up so I could take the necessary notes. Looking back at that moment I can't help but wonder at what point did I go from able to see to having difficulty it kind of felt like it was over night, but I'm sure that wasn't the case. It was probably gradual, but with changes so subtle day by day it felt as if it was from 0-100.
Fast forward to my pregnancy, on top of the constant fatigue, and a growing belly I felt like my vision as beginning to change as well. I was told that I wasn't to get my eyes tested until after I had my son because it could change (hormones) - I was pretty shocked that having changes in vision as even a thing! Anyhow I ended up needing a new prescription and I was not happy about that. Needing glasses isn't the worst thing in the world but like so many people, the thought of having to make a change can be difficult.
It wasn't until the other day that I was talking to some friends about my change in prescription that I realized having a change in perspective is vital to motherhood. Stepping into motherhood isn't quite like trying on a new dress at Forever21, or trying something new at your fav restaurant (for my foodies)! You can't just try it on, once you get a taste it changes everything. Becoming a mother has allowed me to see a new side of me that I didn't even know existed. I am no longer so quick to judge a mother struggling to get her child to listen in the grocery store, or wonder why a child is missing a sock while in public (they take them off themselves, and often times that mama has probably tried to put it back on 1000 times only to turn around and notice it is already off again.) #Judgementfreezone I know that cancelling plans last minute is sometimes a must ( baby is sick, your breast-milk spilt all over the floor, the list goes on..) Above everything else, I was sure there would be some motherly instincts that would kick in but I really didn't expect a new found sense of self, purpose and fulfillment in this role.
"Vision is the art of seeing what is invisible to others." - Johnathan Swift
Motherhood has opened my eyes to new way of thinking- it's not just about me and my husband anymore and though I may not be able to see as well as I used to without my glasses, I can see my son growing, I can see his eyes light up when his daddy comes home from work, I can see the changes in my heart towards other mothers, I can see why God has allowed this to be apart of my journey. I'm truly grateful for this new treasure- motherhood.
